Task For Today: Forget Last Year

fast forward if you can
but only to last year
remembering your smile
but only a for while

for an empty memory
cleaner than a slate
i would pay any price
or for-go any hate

i'd give anything to know
or maybe to forget
time with you was not a waste
make haste, my son, make haste

the sun is almost gone
and if i don't belong
dispite your good intent
what should i think of that?

roses from you hands
wilted long ago
only stained my heart
from rose to indigo

soap and water can't remove
the image i have of you
so fast forward and remember
but only to last year

You left without saying goodbye
But the empty space in the bed beside me
Was more like a welcome Hello
I'd be lying to say I miss you
And I hope you think of me
Because in reality
Your twisted mind thought of me so perversly

I'm feeling so insincere
Please forgive me but I don't have a choice
All the twisted lies you fed me
Have come back to poison my soul
Now you're the one suffering
For the hell you put me through

There's a rush in the air to get me
High on a a freedom I never knew with you
The words you said, sacred to some
Like a dying whisper to my ear
Now there's no chance for redemption
You gave it up long ago
Have no fear, like salt in the wound, your memory lives on

I'm feeling so insincere
Please forgive me but I don't have a choice
All the twisted lies you fed me
Have come back to poison my soul
Now you're the one suffering
For the hell you put me through

They cut the cable lines
To the town where you hid
But someone said letters make it there by sunset
No, I'm not comming after you
We've said our good-byes
But you left under the notion that I would be fine

Wish I could bite my tongue
On all those things I said
I didn't mean it, no, didn't mean it
And if you were back in my arms
I'd hold you tight
I wouldn't trade it (trade it) for the world

He has your eyes, your smile
Boy, would you be proud
I know it's a surprise to you, it shocked me too
But I hope you're happy there
In your perfect little town
well you left so soon and it's still got me wondering

Wish I could bite my tongue
On all those things I said
I didn't mean it, no, didn't mean it
And if you were back in my arms
I'd hold you tight
I wouldn't trade it (trade it) for the world

It's so beautiful over here
All the fancy cars and big careers
But I don't want it, no, I don't want it
They say I will make it big
Got nothing to worry 'bout
Well I would trade it (trade it) for a world with you

What we wanted all along

You told me you were through with us
at the time you seemed so serious
but I still caught a glimpse of what you wanted all along
too scared to take a chance
I had to let you go your own way
but my mind is still stuck on the thought of you

it's dream that can't be caught
but I'd spend my whole life trying
if I thought for just one second 
you'd come back to me in the end

hatred's fire can destroy everything
pictures saved by an angel's touch
we're still together, but now singed around the edges.
this must be where the story ends
together, somehow so far apart
but you're happy now, and that's what I wanted all along

it's a dream that can't be caught
but I'd spend my whole life trying
if I thought for just one second
you'd come back to me in the end

it's a dream that can't be caught
it's a pain that lingers on
there's no morphine strong enough
to replace the ache inside

there's a photograph of you and me
hanging on my bedroom mirror
where I can see it every night as I fall asleep
it's faded and it's tattered too
but I taped it up just like new
I want you to know I'm still holding on to you

All Just a Game (inside your head)

FINISHED VERSION

Like the ocean tide my heart is torn
I'm fighting to make sense of your vague remarks
My silent aspirations
Smothered by the thought of going back
But you won't let it lay
You resurrect the pain again
And I'm dying slowly underneath my skin

Why must you always rip me open
Just to watch me bleed
Why can't you just leave me alone
To die here in peace
Why is it too much to ask of you
To lay the game to rest
Why must you always rip me open
And watch me bleed

Like a drug a poison to your brain
The pain of leaving keeps you alive for weeks
I'll admit I hate you poorly
Condemning words never leaving my tongue
Please don't try again
To make the words make sense
Don't try to justify killing me again

Why must you always rip me open
Just to watch me bleed
Why can't you just leave me alone
To die here in peace
Why is it too much to ask of you
To lay the game to rest
Why must you always rip me open
And watch me bleed

Cause every time
It comes down like a knife
Plunging through my veins
Destroying everything
All the words you said
Gave false pretense to dread
And all the while I knew
It was just a game
Inside your head